much needed help

i got some much needed help yesterday
saturday

i took my children to a friends house
and dropped them off.

that's not something i do
even when they offer

i think 'these are my children,
if i can't handle them, what am i doing?'

so usually she'll show up at my house
and lock me in my room
while she entertains my children

but i needed a few hours
and i used them up!

i cleaned my house!
folded 10 loads of laundry
took two tests
dusted
vacuumed
& wrangled the cat back home.

thank you

and since i'm doing this
with an infant on my lap
and i've forgotten how to html,
nor do i have the time to look it up
here she is

http://bdcbathandbody.blogspot.com/

my visions . . .

. . . i have visions . . .

it's true
visions of sitting
enjoying a hot cup of coffee
with a quiet background

i even go as far as setting my alarm
for 5:30
of course the baby decides
to wake at 5:20
no joke

so i accept this is the way it will be
children screaming,
bickering,
tattling;
all before 6:30

while i try with the grace of God
to make my coffee
taking deep breaths
trying hard not to start screaming,
crying,
or putting them in daycare
for no reason.

back to it

two weeks in new york
visiting the fam does a body good
now i'm home and time to get back to it
the children have been gone
visiting their father for two weeks now

I GET THE BABY BACK TOMORROW!!

that is so hard,
she's 18 months and already been without me for two weeks
sometimes i wonder if it's as hard on her as i think it is

they are so strong
stronger than we imagine

i just hope they feel the love i feel for them everyday

drowning . . .

isn't it amazing how fast time flies?
i haven't written since the first of april!
between school and kids,
not much else has gotten done the past 9 weeks.

i took my 3 to the beach last week, after school.
i'm glad i did. oil is starting to show up on our beaches
what a sad thing to see.

i got myself a camera
finally
i've had it for about two weeks
needed one for kindergarten graduation
playing with it
trying to figure if i like it
making sure it will do what i need, er... want.
so far so good

so i have a week and a half off until next semester starts,
and i will be catching up on some knitting. oh, and house cleaning.
darn