what i learned this week is . . .

• i can keep it pretty much together for my kids sake
• i am easily replaced
• filing motions, responding to petitions . . . better left to the lawyers
• baby 'o' does not need to be rocked to sleep
• i have aged a lot in 2 years, er, matured
• it's hard putting it all behind
• i am intimidated with the whole interview process
• my family is pulling out all the stops for me

alright! how exciting!! i know it's just a way to spread your name around but still a very cute idea. and i do have a few of my favorites. :D so here is the scoop . . .
The rules of the "One Lovely Blog Award" are:

Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

so i was awarded this very special and rare award by momma needs a hobby. i love reading her posts about life as a stay at home mom (sahm) with her two 'kidlets'

so, i'm still fairly new at this, but i will list the following blogs that i visit daily. and somehow find time to alert them of their win. ;)

bdc bath and body
eastern shore moms
bargain buggy
living on 4th street
a little loveliness
diary of a single mom

well, 6 isn't bad. let's you know you are special to me.

momma needs some new shoes

yes, that's right shoes. or maybe food. either way, i need a job. and so in the am i will be heading to an interview. my first in a very long time. i'm a little nervous. i remember my last interview. i was applying for secretary for a small cabinet door shop. worked there 2 years before becoming a sahm. and now, here i am, a few years later, one more kid and no man to support us. looser man. but that's besides the point. i will be stronger because of it. my daughters will grow to be awesome women, wives and mothers because of it. they will be independant, able to stand on their own feet if need be. willing to allow love in their hearts, to grow and nurture them, but not need it to survive.

how did i get off on that? that is not what this post is supposed to be about. i'm trying real hard not to get off on tangents. i can throw one heck of a pity party if i wanted to. but what's the point? i've heard that if you allowed other people and their actions to affect (effect?) the way you feel, then you are allowing yourself to become that persons slave. and i am no idiots slave. (had to throw that one in there) hee hee.

so, the point is, . . . i am going on a job interview and i am about scared out of my mind. i NEED a job. i have been a single stay at home mom with no income long enough. i hate being that woman sitting around waiting for the child support check. i felt a little justified in the fact that i had just birthed his child. but that was 10 months ago. i've just been procrastinating. now that the big girls are in school, it's time. i will let you know how it goes. till then, happy thoughts.

free photo book from walgreens

Become a fan of Walgreens by october 2nd and receive a free photo book!! come on moms, you know you want to.

field trip or shots?

today my 5 year old went on her first field trip ever. her first ride in a school bus ever. and i was not with her :( . sniff i was at the doctor for the baby's checkup. they went to the skating rink. i drove by on my way from the doctor's and wondered if they would let me in. i doubted it, so i drove on. i felt horrible! no pics or anything. what a terrible mother i am. i still have pics from my oldest's first field trip from kindergarten. well, maybe she won't remember. and i will go next time for sure.
my baby had her check up today and got 3 shots total. she cried for half an hour! we had to stop at the store on the way home; she just wanted to go home and sleep. she was fine once she saw the yogurt melts in the cart. then we got home and she just wanted me to hold her, which was fine. it's what she's wanted all week so why should today be any different? between teeth poking through, allergies, and shots the dishes have not gotten done in two days. hmm, maybe i should be doing that now. nah, let me drink my tea and rest for a bit. ;)
the girls are all asleep, for now. long day for all of them. hopefully the baby sleeps well tonight. i'd like to get some sleep too. i wonder what it will be like when she does sleep through the night. she's 10 months old today and still waking up 3 times a night! when i try to give her the paci, she gets ticked off, screams, throws herself around . . . i know i should just walk away, but we share a room. so i get her out of her crib and . . . nurse her. yes i know, you don't have to tell me, but right now that's all she wants. i tell myself it's cause she's teething, but i'm afraid we are getting something started.
well, tomorrow starts a new weekend. no big plans here. just getting caught up on a lot of lovin' with my girls. have a few friends over sunday for some bbq. breathe a little before school starts again on monday. i am glad they both are loving school. makes those morning easy peasy lemon squeezy. (my 9 year old's new phrase) have a great weekend. maybe i'll pop in for a few words of enlightenment. maybe i won't.

what i learned this week is . . .

• i have accumulated a lot of stuff this last year
• a lot of that 'stuff' is junk
• three shots at once is tough for a baby
• love from my children is the best love of all
• we do better with a minute by minute schedule
• family is always there when you need them the most
• i miss new york
• my daughters miss new york
• i can go 10 miles past the '0 miles till empty' warning
• and only 10
• stress can melt away when your children laugh

how can they do this?

so madsen cycles is still having their weekly giveaway. and i want one so bad!! i usually wouldn't try this again, but i actually won something this week!! the fabric shopper had a giveaway. and i won! i have never won anything before. this is so exciting. i wonder what i'm getting!!!
so this madsen cycle giveaway, if i don't win, at least maybe i had a part in spreading the news about a great product. and if i do win . . . oh the places i will go.