much needed help

i got some much needed help yesterday
saturday

i took my children to a friends house
and dropped them off.

that's not something i do
even when they offer

i think 'these are my children,
if i can't handle them, what am i doing?'

so usually she'll show up at my house
and lock me in my room
while she entertains my children

but i needed a few hours
and i used them up!

i cleaned my house!
folded 10 loads of laundry
took two tests
dusted
vacuumed
& wrangled the cat back home.

thank you

and since i'm doing this
with an infant on my lap
and i've forgotten how to html,
nor do i have the time to look it up
here she is

http://bdcbathandbody.blogspot.com/

my visions . . .

. . . i have visions . . .

it's true
visions of sitting
enjoying a hot cup of coffee
with a quiet background

i even go as far as setting my alarm
for 5:30
of course the baby decides
to wake at 5:20
no joke

so i accept this is the way it will be
children screaming,
bickering,
tattling;
all before 6:30

while i try with the grace of God
to make my coffee
taking deep breaths
trying hard not to start screaming,
crying,
or putting them in daycare
for no reason.

back to it

two weeks in new york
visiting the fam does a body good
now i'm home and time to get back to it
the children have been gone
visiting their father for two weeks now

I GET THE BABY BACK TOMORROW!!

that is so hard,
she's 18 months and already been without me for two weeks
sometimes i wonder if it's as hard on her as i think it is

they are so strong
stronger than we imagine

i just hope they feel the love i feel for them everyday

drowning . . .

isn't it amazing how fast time flies?
i haven't written since the first of april!
between school and kids,
not much else has gotten done the past 9 weeks.

i took my 3 to the beach last week, after school.
i'm glad i did. oil is starting to show up on our beaches
what a sad thing to see.

i got myself a camera
finally
i've had it for about two weeks
needed one for kindergarten graduation
playing with it
trying to figure if i like it
making sure it will do what i need, er... want.
so far so good

so i have a week and a half off until next semester starts,
and i will be catching up on some knitting. oh, and house cleaning.
darn

thought for the day

i know, i owe a lot of thoughts
i've been a little busy.
a lot busy

i moved.
not far, but the new place got a new room
had to be painted top to bottom
that was about a month ago
and we are still in boxes.
my room looks like a tornado hit

i've started school
online courses with a community college
i'm starting my fourth week
medical terminology and medical law and ethics
managed to bring a b to an a
that was kind of cool
no, i'm not trying to become a doctor,
or a lawyer.
thinking medical transcriptionist
or pharmacy tech

my camera died
i cried
so i've been taking pics with my phone.
now i need to find my micro sd card reader
where's that box?

hmmm,

ok, ok, so here it is
monday
what a day

wow, what a weekend
it has been crazy
we had a yard sale sat.

i did not do as well as i would have liked to
but everyone else in my family did
and they were the reason for the sale

so monday came and is gone.
20 minutes gone to be exact.
all the babies are sleeping
do you hear that?

neither do i

it's a nice feeling
when your kids are all sleeping soundly
you are careful not to make a sound

but sometimes i find myself
wanting to sneak in and cuddle with them.
they are so sweet.
i need to remind myself that they won't be sweet forever

mindless chatter of a sahm

i may be loosing my mind.
baby has been teething, that's always fun
it's her molar. the third one, so it's been a fun few weeks

my parents are in town, have been for two weeks.
they are packing up all their stuff, selling the rest.
let me back up. i live in their home, with my three girls
they live in new york. have been for almost a year.
well, they are moving permanently and leasing their house
the one i live in with my three girls.

now that the baby is older, i feel comfortable getting a job.
now that i am homeless i need a job
daycare costs will be about 500 a month
i can't find a job

my camera is crap
well, it's 2 years old
so it's time for a new one regardless,
too bad i don't have a job, therefore no mula to buy a camera

yesterday was a sad day
a day i want to forget
i tried, but failed
. . . one day . . .

i started knitting
i finished a scarf for my 15 month old nephew
♥ i hope it will keep him warm ♥

i am going to start ghostwriting for a blog
out of the box sampler
should be fun, come check it out, follow, comment
i'm looking forward to the experience

well, i need to clean the kitchen while the baby sleeps
i maybe have 15 minutes left of this nap, sigh
thanks for listening...